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well .
this few daes , ive not been blogging , & i got no mood at all .
the ones i love keep going away , well , i gotta accept the fact !
im moving on & no more sadness conquering , but a lil bit still has . (:
well , im being strong in moving on , i cn do it !
hahax , yea , guess thats it huh ?
well , till here then , aniwae , ily my besty ! =D

im LOST ! =(

todae .
well , nth much , after doing my e-learning , im blogging right now .
& .. idk why this few daes i felt really so empty .
im feelin really upset & i really dk why .
ouh , i feel lyke shouting out , argh !! idk . im stress , confused , mad abt something , unhappy , feelin left out !!
i really dont know .

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well todae .
i woke up & bath , then here blogging . well , Mr Blueks online , i was happy , but he wasnt . haiz , wonder whats bothering hym . well , he saed his ex sms hym .. & .. idk . i just feel somethings not just right . hes in no mood & he slept , well at the PM , he saed , "whats the meaning of love , cn anione tell me", its like something is really2 going wrong & well , his confused , i think . & , idk . well , just let hym be .

ILYSM ! =D

well , todaes the 1st day of the fasting month n yea , im fasting of course ..
well , im here now chatting with Mr Bluek , hahax , loved .
my phone spoilt n i cant msg hym , n the only way is , chatting with hym , hehe
well , nth much todae , n im so damn tired , like no energy , =D
n yea , i want to continue , chatting with hym , IMY n ILY Mr Bluek !! =D

MR & MRZ BLUEK !! =D

todae , teachers day !
as per normal , getting ready n i went to skool . cant waet to celebrate teachers day n most probably , eat the cake , yummy !! well , the cake was hidden at the back when i 1st came , Faz was hidding it while our teacher Mr Tan was taking the attendance .
then , we called the teachers but eventually only two came , and surprised them , but , Mr Goh came and ask us to stop n went to hall . waeting for the arrival of Mrs S R Nathan . she came and we watched some performances , concert at hall and it ended at last . got to eat the cake , yeyy !! ate and gave out to teachers and well , here ! now im chatting with Mr Bluek , i love ! =D

250808 ! =)

todae ..
Mr BLUEK ! todae i got PE so , i got to see Mr BLUEK cause his PE lesson is the same as mine . i kept on looking at hym and i think he does look at me . then he played soccer and he was lyke no energy . cn see . then , MY EX was playing soccer with hym also . and i saed to mye friend Jah , if the ball MY EX was kicking came twards me and he just ignore , that means he nvr LOVE me as a friend BUT he actually did save the ball from hitting me and i knw he LOVE me , but , as a friend . haiz .. then thats all and nth interesting happened . only Mr BLUEK msgs made my heart melt !! =D

240808 ! =D

todae ..

Mr BLUEK is going for his marathon and sadly i couldnt come , =( ! well , i've something on . & he told me that he ran for exactly 1hr 5mins ! cool and he saed that he had me on his mind while running , and oh , that was so sweet !! =D
after that i went to my so called "bapaks" house , visited him and talking2 . & suddenly i thought of going to Kampung Glam and watch the Hari Rya show .. hmm , but it was raining cats and dogs . we cant even go home ! LOL ! then , the rain started to just drizzling . then we walked home and the rain started to pour down again , and SHIT !! we were drenched ! but we safely reached home and changed . boifreak was following and he waeted for us at old chang kee .
we dressed up and sexysexy bitchybitchy and went off ! it was still raining but we had an umbrella and met boifreak . we went off to bugis 1st and buy his clothes and eat . then , we went off to Kampung Glam and watch the Hari Raya show . we came in and i saw Hady Mirza singing the song Berserah then You Give Me Wings . HANDSOME ! then , Aliff Aziz came out and performed !! i like !! then the hottest guys , SLEEQ !! then , one of them , Shahril , give a sign , im looking at you towards my sis !! wOohOo !! i got to see all the popular ones i one stage and it was so great , memorable day ever !! then Mr BLUEK msg me . after , the show , we went home then and told everything to mummy and daddy LOL ! =D

day out and Mr BLUEK ! =D

saturdae .

hmm .. saturdae , i went out . out to bugis with boifreak .

bought some clothes and went to eat at Mr Prata .

while waeting for the food to be served , Mr BLUEK called me and yea , we talk , then , hys voice was quite funny and i asked him , whats with the voice ? and he saed , ouh , he was doing his workout so , that kind of voice came out . and i was laughing all way , hahax . 1st tyme talking to him and eventually . his voice sound cute , i like ! =D back to the eating part , hmm , after we ate then we went off . went to hub , look out for some rings and we went off home . =D

BLUEK !! =D

todae , just came back from school , tired but happy ! b4 leaving school , i got to see someone . hys smile , and i think he sees me and i just , melt when i saw hym smile , uh ! =D well , b4 that , i saw hym at the quadrangle , then he gives me miss kol . i lyke ! then , when i miss kol hym agaen , he picked up the phone and i quickly put it down , hahax ! =) i heard hym say IZA . then , after recess , me and Faz , went to re-fill water and i saw MY EX and hys friends . they sang the TRIPLE H song , hahax , it was meant fer Faz eventually and i laughed all the way to class . it was funny , but at the same time im happy , i got to see MY EX ! =) after that we had SS and Pinko , told Ms Lee that i was MY EX girlfriend !! OMG , Ms Lee just laugh off . Bluek ! well , and we had PW . but we went off from the garden and we took photos all the way , and Jah keep saying , "put at friendster , put at friendster , hahahahaha " . well shes crazy , crazy abt herself in the photos , nyahax ! overall its a great day . and i love it ! =)

ILY ! =D

I LOVE YOU . hahax , todae is not so fun cause somebody doesnt give me a miss call , hahax .
nuh , its not about that . i have a friend name PINKO , always talking abt her ex boifriend . hahax , they broke up a few daes ago . shes really heartbroken and well , ive been through all that too . but hers the WORST ! shes been crying and crying all the daes . but at last shes cooling down and right now still waeting fer hym . same as me . hahax . but its really true that love is a game for the person who knws how to play with it but not for the one who doesnt , cause once youre hurt , its forever ! =)

is it worth waeting ?

is it worth waeting fer someone i love ? he used to love me , i definitely love hym still but why cant we just stay long ? after we broke up , im always thinking about hym . we keep contacting each other after the breaking up , but till the 12.06.08 , he stop msging me and i wouldnt want to disturb cause i dont wanna be labeled thick skin . after that , i receive msgs from hym , i was happy , but all along then i knw , when he wants somthing important then he'll contact me , but if not , he'll just ignore . i dont mind but the way hes treating me was lyke FUCK ! yea FUCK , but deep in my heart i just dont knw why i cant throw away my feelings twards hym .
i tried to make myself happy and forget abt hym but , nuh , i just cant ! but i guess this is lyfe , and lyfe has to go on . im trying to move on , well im trying . =)